Week 11: Good problems?

Logan is happy to drink his probiotics if he gets his dino cup.

Rawr!  I make you drink your probiotics!

We thought we had turned a corner with Logan, but again we’ve had two days of wiggles, flapping, odd noises, and defiance, which sort of dashed the small amount of hope I’d been feeling.  But an Atmosphere song played on the radio this morning, and I choked up, a few tears slipping down my cheeks as I drove to the bus stop and heard “these problems are the good ones to have …”

I didn’t get the job I’d tried so hard to get.  My kids both wailed practically nonstop last night for two hours and refused to eat.  I don’t know how I’ll ever find time (and money) to begin cooking sugar-free.  But I still have a job.  I have children.  And I have food.  These problems are the good ones to have.

So as we plan to dive into this diet fully, we’re thinking about several things.

  1. Logan will no longer be able to eat anything provided by his daycare.  This means we will now have to make breakfast, lunch, and two snacks in advance to send with him each day.  This will also mean making and sending an additional snack for preschool, where he is bused every morning.
  2. This, of course, will likely mean tears and tantrums when he doesn’t get to eat what the other kids do.  To say nothing of when a classmate brings in birthday treats.
  3. To try to help this, we let him pick out his own lunch box and talked about how cool lunch boxes are, and that he’ll get to have it every day with his own super special food in it.  It worked with his probiotics—he’s now happy to drink them as long as they’re served in his green dinosaur-shaped cup.
  4. Side note: When did lunch boxes become giant pieces of luggage?  We went to the store expecting to find a simple plastic box with rounded edges and a thermos inside, with maybe Mario or Superman on the front.  All I could find were soft, insulated contraptions that will take up half his backpack.
  5. Good news: We learned that we can still bake desserts and other treats to send with Logan, like peanut butter cookies and cranberry gelatin—we just need to make them ourselves, with lakanto sweetener instead of sugar.
  6. Bad news: 1 ½ pounds of lakanto costs $35; by contrast, $35 gets you 24 pounds of sugar.

It again starts to feel impossible and pointless.  But articles like this one from NPR help: http://www.npr.org/blogs/health/2013/11/18/244526773/gut-bacteria-might-guide-the-workings-of-our-minds (thank you Nick for sending it!)

I also especially need to thank Holly and Michael—their story of recovering their child from autism and their willingness to coach us through this mess has been inspirational and motivational for our family!  I am so happy this blog and circumstances have connected us.

Feeling: Emotional, from bad to good and back again 


9 responses to “Week 11: Good problems?

  1. Trisha

    Laura, lets have a play date, leave the kids in the basement with Mark and bake goodies for Logan.

  2. Would love to and I’ll message you … thanks for reading, Trisha 🙂

  3. I love your blogs, Laura……….you are such a good writer, and I’ve been very interested in Autism for many years. Have you read “The Other Side of Normal”? My girlfriend’s cousin wrote it, and I guess she has struggled for years……………….her son is close to 30, now. Good Luck!!

  4. Erin Fatzinger

    Laura – I’m just catching up, but we are 8 weeks into GAPS and I’d love to offer some support. You are on a good path! It gets easier and better. We’ve had some crazy die-off the last few weeks with yeast, but it does get better. It’s such a roller-coaster. Thanks for sharing your story!

    • Hi Erin,
      I’d never heard of GAPS–there are so many different diet options out there! It’s so good to hear the die off gets better–good for you for battling through it, too. One of the things we’re struggling with is getting both our kids to eat so many vegetables now! How do you get your kids to eat veggies and take their probiotics? And how do you deal with school lunches and food in the classroom?

      • Erin Fatzinger

        We are primarily doing GAPS to heal from celiac disease, but it is most well known as a treatment for Autism. I’m a member of a couple of private groups on FB – amazing group of parents. Veggies are tricky for us too as Ella also has fructose malabsorption so her fruit and veggie consumption is really limited. Fresh berries work pretty well and baby carrots. Both kids love spinach and kale chips. Just toss baby kale or spinach with olive oil and salt and pepper and roast in a 300 degree oven for about 10 minutes until they are crispy. They eat TONS of them – easy texture too! For probiotics, the whole family uses GUTpro from organic3. It’s VERY strong but comes with a set of measuring spoons to titrate the dose. It is a tiny dose and we mix it right into water – the kids never notice it. It’s expensive on the front end but is much less expensive in the long run because the bottle lasts forever. As far as school, Ella has a 504 so they do whatever we ask. We provide her food and they never feed her. For Leah, we provide her snacks at school and they have been very respectful of our requests. The kids have stayed pretty tolerant of GAPS restrictions because they both have quite a few allergies that they know may heal by following the program. We may even get a dog! ; ) Sending you lots of good energy – this is tough stuff.

  5. Holly

    We are so grateful to have met you guys! Keep up the good work and can’t wait to see you again and meet the little ones!

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